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A Repository Of Time

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Jun 2, 2022

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it’s a strange kind of joy, a joy that comes in the middle of grieving, like a laugh you have in between crying alone. it’s what comes with being the one left to hear a goodbye. it’s when you can finally say it out loud to yourself rather than overthinking about it all the time- you’ve been made a fool. it’s a strange kind of joy, a strange kind of laugh, for it is not joy in itself, you’re not happy, you’re devastated, you’re not laughing at something funny, you’re laughing at yourself, at the funniness of how you became this fool. it’s strange, and it’s sinister. this joy. this laugh. you know you’re only crying right now. and, with this laugh, you know you’re only going to wail more and more. it’s how you laugh and tell yourself, this is just the start. there’s more to come. you laugh until you can cry, you cry until you can laugh. it’s strange, and it’s sinister.